Life is a bowl of cherries

Living well is the best revenge… I heard this the other night watching TV and while I’ve always heard it before and actually thought it wasn’t bad advice ( because let’s face it karma is a nasty beotch )until recently I’m not sure I ever contemplated if it was possible.  Can you live well and still even want revenge… maybe that’s the point of the saying, that if you are living well you can’t want revenge. I’m not so sure that’s true though, I think you can live well and even be happy but still want a nice little f-you to some people. I’ve struggled to write this and mulled it over again and again in my mind because as much as I want to move past my hurts and have my live well revenge, an equal part of me wants to lash out and punch people. 

I’d like nothing better than to be able to move on and forgive or even just forget and feel completely indifferent, but unfortunately it’s not always that simple.  Time heals all wounds or so they say but I think the reality is time scabs over wounds and allows them to heal, but even wounds that are healed can still scar. I hope to reach my living well revenge, I hope to get to the point where it’s just reality and not revenge. Where I can look back on my situations and say that was just that moment in time and now it’s past. If we can’t we are no different from the bitter Miss Havishams of the world locked away with a rotting wedding cake… and that I refuse to give into.

updated: I posted this a little while ago and struggled hard because I didn't want to wrap my head around things that were happening in my life. I have finally reached my living well revenge and I am happy to report that it did take some time and clarity but it is also possible. I never really thought that not caring would be a great feeling, but my time to grieve and be angry has passed and at the end of the day it's just not worth my energy.